Food Glorious Food!!!!!!

Ok so there is some of you all who are wondering what I am eating. And I am sorry to say that I haven't been keeping up on my food diary pics. (I vow to do it all day today.) Eating is probably the hardest part of all of this. I mean harder even than working out. I mean let's face it. I have been in love with food pretty much all my life. Like so many others that struggle with weight I definitely turn to food for comfort or joy or boredom .... plus I mean, hello! chocolate cake really is YUMMY! So what's a girl to do? I mean check out just going to the grocery store yesterday....

So Tom and I actually talked more about my eating this morning. I struggle between what I can tolerate with my lapband, plus eating sensibly, plus eating OFTEN. See I need to eat more often which is what Tom REALLY wants to see me doing. Like 5 times a day and each meal (snack) (whatever) being like 200 -250 calories so I am consuming like 1250 - 1500 calories a day. Well my problem is that I still want things that are not good for me...or my metabolism is so shut down that I can go without eating until like 3 in the afternoon and then at 9 at night I am still eating. Not good. I used to think that if I didn't eat all day that I had accomplished something. (or eaten very little) and this is the worst thing I can do. So my plan is to eat sensibly NOT TAKING OUT ANY ONE GROUP OF FOODS .....and try to keep at the whole 5 times a day small meals. I will split my shake in 2 ... so I consume half after my work out and half at like noon. Then I will eat again at 2 -ish, then again at like 4 or after (to eat dinner with my mom) and then probably around like the 7-8 hour. I am going to try and not eat after 8 at night. NOW THAT IS A CHALLENGE!!! I think that this is (like I said) the most important part of this working and the most difficult for me.

I also realized today.....thanks to Tom.....that I am lazy. LOL. Ok don't revolt against Tom. He is kinda right. I was explaining that I go to the fridge and don't want to do the wrong thing, so I just walk away and not eat anything. And he said well that's just lazy.....cause you don't want to do the wrong thing, BUT YOU DON'T WANT TO DO THE WORK TO DO THE RIGHT THING. .......sigh. So true. Welp. guess what? It's time to do work son!